Summary

I suppose this will be the last post of Storyboarding. Let me summarized my poly life so far.

Polytechnic couldn’t be any better without friends,and yes,I heard that poly students are scheming and whatsoever but what I experienced was vice-versa.

Firstly, I would like to talk about my classmates. I think I’m very fortunate to have a class like mine,where everybody are very spontaneous,nice,friendly, too much things to comment about them.

I guessed the whole class knew I am the tardy queen so Shaun volunteered to give me morning calls every school day. How nice of him isn’t it? The joker of the class,Melvinder singh KAKKA! Haha! He never fails to cheer our day up with his either cold or real funny jokes. I can’t wait for our 6 weeks immersion trip to Bangkok with these lovely people! We’re going to have a crazy and fun filled trip!

Next week would exam week for most courses. Fortunately, our course doesn’t have any exams,only test,tests, and more tests! Honestly I still prefer taking exams rather than taking in account of all assignments and tests’ results. We had to perfect every single piece of assignment in order to have good grades in total. You know huh, things are never perfect. Some assignments we do well, some assignments we just screwed it.

Well, just hope that we will sail smoothly throughout year 1!

Goodbye always hurt.

One day you told me this.

I love you, but I’m just not able to love you completely. It’s as if somewhere deep inside me myself felt something’s missing, and I can’t figure it out what it is. It’s like jiggsaw puzzle,not complete without the last piece.

You never know that I actually knew it long time ago, my sixth sense kinda thing tells me that. Whenever you’re with me, I don’t know why, although your arms are around me, I felt warm but at the same time, I felt that the most important thing wasn’t there. Your love. I used to think that you love me very very much, in fact all the while I had this dumb thinking inside my head. Till someday when I really used my heart to feel,everything felt superficial, like we were just flings you know? One thing I’m very certain of is that I love you very much, more than anything in the past present and maybe even future.God knows why things just don’t turn out to be what you expect, well, this is life I guess. You’ll never know what will happen.  3 weeks ago I thought we would be together forever, but now, hah, it’s gone.

Today, you messaged me a 5 pages long message me,telling me how regret you felt, and you finally understand how much you love me after I left you. You even said this was just human nature, that in a relationship you felt something is wrong, but after losing what you had before, you began to miss it and regret. You said I was self-fish for not giving you enough time to tell me you love me.

I didn’t know love can be express by just telling. I asked you before what is love. You simply replied me, Love is caring for that someone, be there for him or her and one more which I forgot, that’s all. I wasn’t satisfied with your answer so you shoot me back the same question, you thought that I couldn’t answer that question[like how you did] and I can’t come up with a better answer. Boy,that’s so wrong. This was what I told him.

Love, is missing you every minute and second. Everything inside my mind is you.

Love, is whenever I saw a missed call or message, I would hope and eager to check if the sender was you.

Love, is I felt heartache inside me when you told me you’re not feeling well or  you’re upset.

Love, is I laugh and cry together with you.

Though there’re so much more, love is all about you baby.

You wanted me back so badly now, but love is something you can’t force my dear. If you don’t have the thing for me, you can’t fake one just because you lost it before and you felt guilty after that.

Baby,I’m letting you go, though goodbye hurts in my heart, it’s the only way now for you and me.Till the day you found what’s lost,
till the day you had a girl you really love, we shall see what future brings.
We’re on our own now. Don’t worry, I’ll stay strong.

Yes people, I’ll stay strong.

Toothfairy is giving me money.

Warning: Don’t scream, EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!

Mr Leslie, this is the reason I did not attend your class last week.

Thanks to my toothache, I plucked this decayed-rotten-piece-of-shit tooth outta my mouth today.

Last night,I dreamt of having a bad toothache while talking to my friends. Gradually,the pain was getting too real to be true that I woke up from my sleep. It was only 5.30a.m.that time.( I had to wake up at 7a.m) My back tooth caused the left jaw line,all the way to my ear, and my gums to hurt like hell. I tried pressurizing my hands against it to stop the pain but it doesn’t really work at all. That point of moment I knew I surely couldn’t make it for school because the pain just won’t go away and it makes me felt like doing nothing at all but just to squeeze the left side of my face hard against my pillow.

So I was left with no choice but to visit the dental clinic in the afternoon.(I hate dental check up) .The dentist said that the bacteria not only did decayed my tooth, they were starting to attack my nerves and thats the reason why I felt the pain on the left side of my face.
The process of extracting my back tooth was seriously physically obviously painful as the injection to my tooth wasn’t strong enough.I never know my tooth looked that big after I saw it for real.(You can see from the photo)

After dental visit, I went to meet baby boy at town(With the cotton wool inside my mouth). The injection not only numbed my tooth and gums, it made my tongue numbed as well. So the cotton wool+ the injection= I was speaking as if I just pierced my tongue or I was born with short-tongue. I swore I can’t pronounce letters like S,C,T and so on. I called baby when I reached but he can’t understand what I was saying at all.
B:Where are you?
Me: Where are you?
B: I”m at far east,you?
Me: Same!( I can’t pronounce the S)
B: Oh, train issit?
Me: No, ame, ame ame.
B: Huh? What are you talking?

I spoke like a total retard right? Hahahah. And the toughest word of the day is : Disgusting.
We had dinner at Xin Wang Cafe and took a bus than bus back home.(Had to change bus in order to reach my house) I realised my baby got a wide social network. Every part of the area in town,he would surely spot familiar faces.

Today I’ve got quite a number of tasks not completed.

• Camera not collected.
• I didn’t go for project meeting.
• IS homework not submitted(I haven’t started on it anyway.)
• I skipped work at cafe.

Oh well, those points weren’t important though.
You know, during childhood, you were told to put your dropped tooth below your pillow so that toothfairy would approach you and exchange it for $$. I always wanted to try it out but as you can see, my tooth is so disgusting! I think even it’s for free the toothfairy would not even dare to touch it.
Plus I won’t even place it below my pillow for goodness sake.

Okay, considered a long post for today.Goodnight people!

Time flies fast,especially now.

I misses ballet.

I just spent my leisure time flickr-ing dance images and this is the first photo which caught my eye. How I wished that someday I could be like her.

Oh ya,thanks guys for the encouragement and support. Donna managed to get into NRA! I was super shocked when my friend messaged me about this good news. I thought he might be joking pranking or whatever so I ignored him. But gradually, when more and more people started to congratulate me, I anxiously went to nradance.blogspot.com/( The results page) and I saw my name there,right there there! I thought I couldn’t make it through, I’m sure you guys read about my heartfelt post after my audition and think the same way as I did right? My confidence is back,like finally! Hiphip hooray!

Today’s photography lesson started at 8a.m and I reached at 8.30a.m! Yay, my best record so far this week!
Classmates had already started on a technical quiz before I reached. When the lecturer told us that this quiz consist 5% of our module, everybody just went “Die already, byebye to my 5%” It was damn tough,okay fine, that was just was excuse, I didn’t study for this quiz. I would score a big fat 0 for this quiz unless this teacher gives me some sympathy marks.
I realised I’m quite behind tasks compared to my classmates. All good kids,do their homeworks,study for tests, and most importantly, they don’t go school late!
I don’t want to retain or repeat my module for the next semester. Ahhhh!
Photography workshop was fun! Amanda,Belle and I were great photographers and supermodels for a good one hour.

Oh and a piece of good news here. We are able to bring home the dslr tomorrow and returned it on Monday! Awesome isn’t it?

DONNA’S PHOTOGRAPHY

BELLE’S PHOTOGRAPHY

AMANDA’S PHOTOGRAPHY(she havent send me photos yet)

After viewing all the photos we took, I’m actually quite worried about career prospects of a DVFX student. Apparently we are relaxing and having fun every single day.Things which we are learning are basically hands on stuffs like 2D art, photography etc.,and obviously they’re nothing compared to engineering maths and business stuffs. I would keep on have this thinking in my head ,”Would I become jobless after I graduated? Would my pay be damn damn low compared to engineers and other office executives?”They said Capricorns(Me me me!) tend to think alot,but I think in this case is not really counted because every student should be planning their future by now and ought to know what’s the outcome of their 3 years of hardwork.

Alright alright,enough of my random thinking,back to daily post.

I went for Inline Skating for my second try in the late evening and Lepeh said I improved!(I didn’t even practice at all).I did fell a few times but it wasn’t as bad as my first try.At least this time round I tried out the T-brake and managed to did it quite a few times.But after next week the rentals will not be available anymore,which means I had to spend $ on skates of my own!
I cant hold the decision,all up to my mama.
Mummy buy 1 pair of skates for meeeee!
Having Leslie’s tutorial tomorrow, cannot be would not should not be late if not he will act fierce again. Hahah!

Goodnight!

Super sad!

It’s all dancers regret if they were like me, forget steps during audition.

I SCREWED MY AUDITION.
HOW COULD I FORGET MY STEPS!
HOW COULD I PANIC!
EACH GROUP HAVE 7 PEOPLE AND ONLY 1 OUT OF 7 CAN PASS THROUGH.
RACHEL RACHEL HOW HOW HOW?

Past few days had been hard for me. I tend to think alot, as in really ALOT.
I worried for unimportant stuffs, I worried for audition, I think alot regarding miscellaneous issues. And now adding on to my pressure is homework.
My classmate just reminded me that I have to do my eng hmk which consists hell tons of grammar practices and essays.

I need help, I need someone to talk to, I need to stop my brain from thinking too much.
Is this like depression,just that I dont have the suicide desire?

Don’t think don’t think

I don’t have homeworks,but I have to work.

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Work is spoiling my weekends this week.It sucked to be working on weekends,especially saturdays!
Yesterday’s Hop Night was a bore,not to mention that the Dj sucked.
Convention center was very big,but the total number of people presented were about hundred something only. This made the dance floor very empty and, you know,weird as well cos there were so much spaces available.
Dancing with my girls was fun! Apparently that particular night they saw a different side of me.
BELLE,MEL,BER,DAPHNE,JULIET
They all said that I’ll surely made it through NRA audition!Haha.
Oh oh,put a line between dancer and clubber please. I’m a dancer!

I went shopping at Town with Belle before Hop Night.We said that we must control,and yes, we did not,or I should say only I did not.
Belle got herself, a bangle,a top and a bow clip.
I got myself 2 bags and a bow clip(somehow the bow fell off my hair after a while.)
We shared alot of things yesterday and I found that we have pretty much common points and stories,except that she’s prettier than me.Haha

OHMYGOSH,MY PHOTOBUCKET FINALLY WORKED.